Mama and Papa 'Fro will be coming home tomorrow. After his 3 year battle with cancer, we have run out of options and we have all agreed that we would rather have him home for his remaining time on earth than lying in a hospital for them to do research on him. I cannot even put into words how hard this is for my family and I have no idea what the remaining weeks will hold for any of us, but I wanted to post this conversation for posterity because it reminds me that sometimes our children know more than we do.
(Saturday Morning - May 9th - Over Coffee on the Back Porch)
AFRo: Papa & Maemae are coming home.
Oldest: Is Papa going to make it Mom?
AFRo: We don't know honey. But, it doesn't look like it.
Oldest: Why? I been prayin and prayin and why is it not working?
AFRo: Well baby, sometimes when God decides that he needs a new angel, there's nothing we can do to stop him from taking one of us. I think God really really wants Papa to be his new angel, so we have to let him go to heaven and we'll have our very own special angel up there.
Oldest: (matter-of-factly) Well Mom, miracles happen every hundred years and we can just start praying for a miracle. God might give us one.
This is just a piece of the conversation that was had that morning. Of course there were more questions... which included him asking my mom the next night if Papa could take a cell phone to heaven so we could still talk to him. As heart wrenching as it is, I am so proud of him for reminding me that even when your hope is gone, or so it seems, that we should never stop believing in miracles.
God I pray that you give us all the strength and wisdom to do whatever it is that you have in store for us, because from where I'm standing it looks like it is going to be too hard. Please help me to have the right words when I need them and to just stay quiet when I don't. Please give us all comfort because today... it hurts.
In Jesus name. Amen.
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Monday, May 11, 2009
Out of the Mouth of Babes
Posted by AFRo at 1:08 PM
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My heart is hurting for you guys. I have been following his treatment and hopeful recovering thru his page and when I read this my heart sank.
I don't really have any words to make it better because lets face it there really isn't really anything to make it all better. Just know that I have been and will continue to keep you guys in my thoughts.
Damnit 'Fro. Love you hon.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
I still believe in miracles and I pray with all my heart that Papa Fro gets his.
Tight hugs to you, my friend.
So sorry to hear about your dad ((hugs)).
Random tidbit..last night was another sleepless night for me...and a prayerful one for me...someone during the night God showed me that while we lost Andi-girl on 01/20/09, our little Tru-be-doo as Papa called him was born on that day. I learned it accidentally from re-reading an old email from the shelter and reading old posts in caringbridge journal. To me God was letting me know these are his plans for our lives and we should rest in that fact. What were the odds that I would pick a puppy from Columbia TN on line because his eyes spoke to my heart....and later learned he was born on the same day we lost Andi-girl. I don't believe it was an accident. And how reassuring that is... God has a plan for us too. Loss hurts but its not final....we will be with him again one day if we are who we are supposed to here in the meantime. Love u, Maemae
That last should read someway during the night....sorry I didn't proof before sending. Maemae
I think you need to post the first picture on your site of Tru-be-doo on your site from my facebook one...so your readers and you can see those eyes...I bet they will speak to you too.
I'm so sorry that things seem to be going this way for Papa Fro. I'm so sad about this and for you and your family. I think that he's doing the right thing by coming home to be with his family for as long as he can, though. I'm sure you'll all make the most of whatever time you have left.
I'll keep praying, too. God bless you!
My thoughts and prayers are with you, PapaFro, and your family
Oh my goodness... I've been a lurker of yours for quite a while now, and have been reading the Papa Fro blog, but hadn't in a couple of weeks. I am so terribly sorry to hear the latest news. I have been praying for him and think of him often, even though I don't know any of you!
I'll be praying for peace for all of you, especially for Papa Fro.
God Bless
The most beautiful thing I've read in a long time, sister!!! Cherish each remaining moment, be present, fully aware and with heightened senses, remember the smells, feel the touches, absorb all the visual surroundings, hear each and every sound, imprint them in you to a cellular level...this is what living in the moment is, forget the past, don't waste time on the fantasy of the future, be 100% awake and alive in the nowness of these moments...be fully present and give yourself the greatest gift of all during this time!!! Be joyful for each and every moment you have at this point and be love, it will make the need for it to go away, dissolve into gratitude and acceptance...I LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!
I'm so sorry to hear about Papa Fro'. I'll be praying for him and all of your family...
You and your family are in my prayers, Afro.
-[the] Renee
Taking care of my father is the hardest thing I have ever done, but I know I will get through it and so will you. Take 1 day at a time.
Thinking of you
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I am praying for all of you...for strength, for wisdom and for a miracle. Big big hugs...Jen
Afro I am praying for you and your family. We found out about 3 weeks ago my moms cancer is back. There is no cure for her...only management we don't know how long we have could be years. Every day is so precious. I pray for peace and the words for you when your boys ask questions, and for a miracle.
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