It's something that I've always struggled with.
My lack of patience is part of why I quit my job 3 weeks ago. I wanted better and I wanted it right then. That fact, coupled with the misery that I felt going into work and leaving my children all day created the perfect storm that got me to were I am now...
Unemployed... but happy as ever.
I know that immediate gratification is NEVER a reality, but I can't help but dream. In my dream world, my husband would've already passed his CPA exam and would have his career well established... enough so that I could pursue my desire to be a stay at home mom and have have 2 more children. We would own a home in an area that we'd never have to worry about property values falling drastically every year.
That's all I want really. That's the epitome of my dream world and all of the wants that after 9 years of marriage, I'm wondering if we'll ever make those dreams come to fruition. Then I consider patience. Ugh. It's so hard.
So, I'm trying this new "leap of faith" thing. Since leaving my job, I've found a new peace and sense of serenity in my life and it has allowed me to relax and mostly let go of my impatience with my "wanners."
I truly believe that good things are going to happen for me and my little family in the future. But, I've decided to stop focusing so hard on trying to make those things happen. Instead, I'm focused on today and what I can do to make TODAY a success for myself and my family.
Wish me luck.
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Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Patience
Posted by AFRo at 1:38 PM
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9 comments:
You know what they say "good things come to those who wait" of course I am also one of those who Hates to wait!
good luck with what ever it is that is making you happy at the moment, I found not working was what made me happy even if it meant a drastic reduction in our way of life. But 7yrs later I don't regret it.
The Afro blog is revived! It's really great to see you posting again.
I had no idea you had left your job, but I understand wholeheartedly where you are coming from. Yes, less money does suck, but these are some of the sweetest days that you don't want to miss out on in your kid's lives. That's the stuff you can't put a price on. Cliche', but so true.
I'm thinking good thoughts for you and hope you can relax and enjoy this season of your life.
Yay for quitting your job!!! There's nothing worse than forcing yourself to do something you hate, and it's the BEST feeling when you can get up and walk away from that!
Now go make a baby!!
Congratulations! I'm sure there will be days when you question your decision to quit your job, but in the long run, you'll find that you really did make the best decision. Patience has always been in short supply for me, too, but it seems that I have a lot more of it as a SAHM than I did as a paycheck-earning worker bee. And I probably never would have had children #3 & #4 if I had been working full-time.
BTW, I sort of have you to thank for child #4. Remember that whole "100 days of sex" thing? We never made it to 100 days, but we still got our prize!
I take my hat off to you for quiting your job. I have been feeling the same way you did for a couple of years. I want to stay home with my boys so bad but I dont have the balls to quit! Way to go Afro!!!!!
Best to you! Staying home is a life I struggle with daily. I loved working, but my kids need me more.
Its really nice to see someone actually doing something they believe in. Good for you and your family.
You're blogging again! Yay! I'm so happy that everything is going well. Were you and Mr AFRo able to come to an agreement about school?
Good for you! I hope everything works out for you. I stopped working when #4 was born, 3 years ago, and I really feel like I am exactly where I am supposed to be now. Life is good.
-The Renee
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